Archives For July 2015

Today is the day! Mani/pedi tonight! Can’t wait! In fact, 6 more hours! In celebration (and anticipation) I did face make-up today 🙂 I even did more and went a little heavier than usual. I started with my typical eye routine but then added more foundation to my overall face. I went for a smooth, even, natural look. And, I went a little heavier with the mascara and have longer, thicker (sexier, flirtier) eyes today!

I have a confidant at work who I am out with and she’s my “barometer” to help me gauge whether it’s too much, or noticeable. Her response today was “No, I can’t tell at all. In fact, I wish I could do make-up as well as you” <big grin>. I also kind of came out to a co-worker in the next cube. She leaned over to ask me a question but seemed to stare at me like there was something different. I swear she had a quizzical, inquiring look that almost said “Are you wearing male-up?” So when we had a bit of privacy and other cube-dwellers were away, I asked her if she could tell. She seemed shocked that I would ask that but did say no, she couldn’t. So score another win.

That said, ladies (and other CDs) I have a question. I’ve been wearing the eye make-up about 2 to 3 times a week and even though I remove it each night I’ve noticed that either I haven’t removed all the mascara or that my lashes seem to be getting longer and thicker. Is this possible?

Ciao my lovelies, till next time…


Love the Feeling!

July 28, 2015 — 1 Comment

What feeling is that you ask? Why, the feeling of something silky and satiny against my skin from stockings, to pantyhose, to panties. It just feels so damned good! It feels sexy! It feels wonderful! It feels invigorating!

I decided to wear pantyhose today and it feels wonderful (even with the sunburned legs). I don’t know, I just really like that feeling against my skin. I don’t understand why my wife hates wearing them. Ladies, what are your thoughts?Ciao my lovelies!Denise Black_Stockings
One word… Ouch! You could also put this under “lessons learned”. I wound up with a nasty sunburn on the tops of my thighs, shins, and sides of my calves after an outing last Saturday. Since I’m playing golf this afternoon I needed to shave again this morning. It… was… not… fun.
I am grateful that my girlfriend donated a brand new Lady Remington to me so I didn’t need to use my regular razor. But still… No fun!
On a more positive note… Countdown to spa down begins! Looking forward to my manicure/pedicure this coming Thursday! (Although I’d LOVE to be going wearing a sundress and some heels!) Mani_Pedi

Ciao my Lovelies,


July 24, 2015 — 2 Comments

I was looking around online for some cute or sexy sandals (or both!). These are what’s left after narrowing down the field. Want! Want! Want! Would LOVE to see my painted and stocking-covered feet and toes in these.

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Eye_HalfOpen_Sexy_WP  I love my free time in the morning! My wife usually leaves around 5:30 AM to catch the bus and my girlfriend is usually out of the house by 6:15 at the latest. Since I don’t have to be at work until about 8:30 (and I only live 5 miles from my office) this gives me close to 2 hours of alone time in the morning with which to practice applying make-up, doing my nails, shaving my legs, and other “girly things”. Eyes_Open_WPToday was no exception as I worked on the areas around my eyes again.

What do you think? Did I do OK? (Yes, I definitely think it’s time to have some major brow work done).

Also, very excited as I finally got my mani/pedi appointment scheduled for next Thursday. So excited! I so want to go in a sundress and sandals. Alas, for now, I’ll have to go in my work clothes (button down shirt and jeans). Some day…

Ciao my lovelies!

A Lot to Learn

July 22, 2015 — Leave a comment

RunnyMascaraWhat do I mean by a “lot to learn”? Well, last night we had some friends in from out-of-state. Before I picked my wife up at the bus stop I ran home and touched up my make-up. Basically I applied a little more concealer and mascara for the night. I really didn’t think much of it. We met our friends at their hotel then went out for pizza and microbrews and no one noticed the make-up at all. It was late by the time we got home and I was a bit tipsy (for the record, if you ever get a chance you should try Lost Abbey’s Angel’s Share strong ale. It not only has an amazing amount of flavor and chocolate notes, but at a whopping 14.7% ABV it has quite a kick as well!) Now, back to the point of my post.

I got home and my girlfriend was already in bed. I went in, tucked her in, kissed her good night, then went to bed myself. And therein lies my mistake.

I woke up this morning, my wife had already left for work and I went to check to see if my girlfriend was awake. The first thing she says is “Are you wearing mascara?” I admitted that I was and that I had put it on before heading out with friends last night, and then I went to the bathroom. That’s when I noticed that it had run and smudged while asleep. I had forgotten to take it off before going to bed <sheepish grin>. So, lesson learned! Remove make-up before going to bed! I’m sure here are other mistakes I’ll encounter along the way and there will be even more lessons learned.

Ciao my lovelies!

Some New Goals

July 21, 2015 — 6 Comments

ShoppingI decided last weekend to add some new goals for the next few months: Going out in public! Aside from work (which will be a huge deal), I am now planning some more “mundane” endeavors. One will be just a regular trip to the grocery store or even just a convenience store. My goal is to get up, put on my dress, heels and make-up then run to the store for a few items. Another goal would be to go to a restaurant while dressed, sit at the bar, and have a nice dinner. And, I’d love (love, love, LOVE!) to go shopping while dressed. There are a few place locally that are CD/trans friendly. But I’d even consider Macy’s. Now to get that weight off!

Sigh… Can’t…Wait…

Ciao my lovelies!


First Big Thanks

July 17, 2015 — Leave a comment

BlowingKissesI started this blog just a few weeks ago and am surprised by the interest and feedback to date. So let me start by saying “Thank you immensely” to my first few loyal readers. When I first put this out there I wasn’t sure what I expected other than the strong possibility of negative, hateful comments. It seem people have rather narrow view points when it comes to anything out of the ordinary.

But I have been pleased so far and I very much appreciate the positive comments.

Again, thank you my lovelies,

ApplyingMascaraIn my post Labels and Definitions, I talked about gender fluidity. One way to explain what that means to me is that some days I feel a little more masculine and want to be “dashing and handsome”. Days like this I’ll go to work in a nice pair of slacks and a French cuff shirt with cufflinks. But some days I want to feel sexy or pretty. On those days I would love to show up to work in a nice sun dress and sandals, or a pencil skirt, blouse and heels. I haven’t quite reached that point yet. But on those days maybe I’ll put on some stockings or some silk panties just to feel the smoothness against my skin underneath my “man clothes”.

As I get bolder though, like yesterday, I am adding make-up on those days. Today, it’s a mix. I feel a bit both masculine and feminine so I mixed it up. I have on a pair of slacks, a button down shirt, panty hose, and did my eye make-up again. Even though I’m in slacks and a button down shirt, I still felt sexy and pretty as I faced the mirror and applied my make-up and did my nails. Thus, today. the “little bit of this, a little but of that”.

Labels and Definitions

July 15, 2015 — 1 Comment

So I decided to wear eye make-up to work today. Not a whole lot, but some. I basically applied some concealer around my eyes. I blended it from just below the lower eyelid to the upper cheeks, between the upper lid and the brow, then feathered it out towards my temples and ears. Then a little mineral powder to soften it a bit and finished with a touch of mascara. It’s not that noticeable but if anyone looked close they could probably tell I had make-up on.

As I was heading to work, I got to thinking about the “why” I do this. The short answer is that today I felt like feeling pretty and maybe a bit sexy. And that leads to a much longer answer. First off, now that I’ve come out as enjoying cross dressing and dressing up as a woman, I’m getting more comfortable in my own skin. But again, the question is why?

Deep down inside me I feel both male and female (or neither male or female depending on how you look at it). I have strong desires that society would call “masculine” and also desires the society would call “feminine”. I also have physical traits that tend to go both ways. I have a more masculine facial structure, but more feminine bone and muscle structure. There are people in non-gender binary communities who have names for this. Some use a-gender while others use gender-queer, gender fluid or even pan-gender. I’m really not about labels as I am who I am. That said, if I had to pick from a label, I’d use gender fluid as it seems to be how I feel from day-to-day. That is, I float back and forth between the male and female feelings and desires. So today I felt much more feminine and went with make-up.